When left to the truth, I remember I'm good.

At the beginning, I was not told I'd be peeped on to lose it all.  I had to move since then, too, so people around me have different feelings.  Some people are just uncontrollably jealous of anything.

Someone feels it's their job to stimulate someone, but it ends up with him seeming superior to others.

I noticed something funny where people don't even think any of it happened for me originally anyway.

I got underground famous somehow, and a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, I keep feeling, possibly may have taken it on purpose for some reason, so now she's popular and I can be questionable about my right to have a "relationship" with her or function where I am or go.  Now, since people wanted to make it seem like she was always with me, someone else is pestering me, making use of this system.  It's irritating to say I lost anything in my "relationship" with the lady like I "did" anything... like it was my fault.

People just want to help make this lady inappropriate in an overly stimulating way.  They think the likes of her is to be hurt more than most people?  I think the people monitoring me in private are sorta showcasing her on display because most people are questionable to me and they want to know why her too.  So, she's good for getting attention and and said to be bad to me in these messages others give me claiming it's her.

So, the people monitoring me in private are acting like someone the Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with knows is acting mean to me and showing off about it, like she thinks she knows me and that I'm shit.

People are working on holding doing things for the big finale, but they are bad things "happily ever after.."

Are people just tryin' to get me to talk to make fun of me?

Who cares about some/many people, anyway.  I have reasonable goals, and I'm not in trouble.

Some things are the untouchable topic.

I feel trapped.

If it doesn't work out for one person, then it does for another but not oneself.

They're onto this!

Pretty much, one wants to feel a lot in bad ways, while cutting off others from having a successful experience, like one is better.  It may only be done to make havoc if something isn't just for them waiting but they don't want it really.

One assumes one is important plus feels a certain way they don't have to, to annoy others but more ultimately.

It's sick the way people monitoring me in private have picked up on some feeling and went crazy analyzing it forwards and backwards, sickening at the fact they are into some things.

Also, since I encountered it or something, they wanted to do it to me but not them.

I'm hearing desperate fantasies from cars outside that rightly so the Late Baby Boomer European lady thinks I'm shit and said I deserve to die.  They're pretending I got into something a certain way, so these messages mean nothing in many ways potentially, but I as a person don't myself kid around despite their fantasies.

I can see the crowd turned on to "sex" and bodily/emotional and such stimulation.  They want to say I did it.  "By the way," they were doing bad when getting in my personal life, and somehow that affected how other people treated me.

I may be cranky because of people bothering me.  I'm also having my period in at least a week, if not now.

I just got really pissed off that it's like this Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with got underground famous over me.  "Instead," it's like some joke and punishment that I feel guilty about it and feel mad other people are getting close to me who are mean to or not as social with me, like none of this really matters to anyone, anyway..  They don't need to tricked to get overly involved in fighting crap.

Late Baby Boomers clown around without reaching goals, yet they don't let others take a break and have fun.

What if my life took a turn for the worse somehow, and everyone was being monitored in private, like my life being framed and a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with be preoccupied or bothered.

It's just good to consider these things calmly, post them on a blog, etc.  It's like my life might not be destroyed but somehow not work out.

Fact.  They're jumping to conclusions and behaving "stupidly."

Everyone keeps acting like I figure out things tactually and Autistically, like over the top like building blocks and they're just coming on.

They won't stop dipping in that if I feel something it's true.

They want to come in and cancel my potential anywhere.

It seems like a general phenomena and drawing in that I be put below others.

I'm not here to settle for this.

I don't need to be categorized as a family.

I don't have to be like other people or hold off for them.

They're going crazy blaming my private wonderings like I have a fetish.

It's like everyone has a VIP to "get on my nerves" and do "stupid" things.

I don't want to blend in with and get close to these people.  They are reaping from my accomplishments in life.

It's like they think I'm one with as a mongrel morally.

I already proved them wrong, but they keep charging for more.  I don't think I even had to post much about it. 

How pathetic, like that's their own creed.  They might know I find them some of them corny sometimes.  I already agree that a Late Baby Boomer European lady is great.  It doesn't mean I "stoop to their level" like I'm family.

So, they think they're "all that" like they went in and want me to be categorized with them now.  It might be an old plan they're just upset I posted about.  It's for "off the wall" reasons, too.

Why do some people just get testy how long they come in to "break up the party?"  We're still there..

People are coming up with crafty, autistic arguments saying things match and not doing the work if they want the true reward and preventing others from reaching God inside.

You know when life is already bad and maybe it seems like someone might be chiming in to make it worse ... and act confident they know you're bad?  Life was never fair to me, and I don't know for sure what I did that bothered people.