Black people in East Cleveland act agitated about the cold to me, and I'm from Down South and it's my first time Up North and they're just feeling sorry for themselves, I wanna get out anyway.

It's about people who seem less complex about problems and receive love well.  People thought maybe I wasn't human and didn't realize things later, but I realize them.

I guess all this is just "okay."

I expect hotel treatment.

Blacks here are so annoying and have a comeback.

I don't like how people in Ohio handle group homes.  They're not okay.  I'm leaving this state.

She said she would go with it, and people are just stupid.

Well, like, just be stupid and blame the lady.

I see that I'm always the problem to work around.  Like my coming here was a bad thing.

Isn't it retarded they think every thought is "final answer" like my privilege but bargain?

These Black people are not the only people in the world, and in their hate they can be very stupid to me.

They keep acting like the people monitoring me in private are touching me because I showed physical signs of frustration alone in the group home.

It seems that they're "coming out."

It's all about the Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with...

Late Baby Boomers flail about here and do whatever they want to me.  I get injured by accidentally hurting myself in some general form, like my typing seems slow and is painful somewhat- painful when I post about these things.

Basically, it's not about me because they think I'm younger and I'm "the receiver."  If I am right, I am wrong.  I was just teased brutally, in some retarded fashion.

Also, overall, the end game is all bad things are this lady to me because no one wants to fess up to it.

She gets comfort by others telling her to be mean to me or to "forget about" me.

I was brutally awoken in my sleep.  My music keeps breaking up, and it's like I'm not getting any sleep.

I get teased for being overly positive like I'm in a category, like I see nothing specific in this way.

They're trashing me overall in this "game" monitoring me in private.  My condition is trash.  People don't feel safe to be nice to me, but I'm still here and things seem to flow with these people where I am.

My old choir director in the New Orleans area speaks through and now participates monitoring me in private saying I wasn't as cool as a baby and so am nothing, like it's some cute thing to say.

I can't believe the people monitoring me in private were so incompetent to work to end up squeezing this out of her.

People keep making a topic suggested by a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with seem like a big deal.

I'm upset if the lady is lesser to me than suggested or whatever.

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I edited that post again.

People are speaking for a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.  They are saying her fame is the reality and it's in great excess.. and what was supposed to be okay is not, though, so what was the point?  Did she enjoy it so far?

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I edited my last post.

Awake

Am I supposed to feel uncomfortable some people get a little mad at me but they think they aren't because they are willing to talk to me?

EDIT: I'd like to find some "nicer" and better way to put it.

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It seems a talk show host thinks I'm a volatile figure, and I notice only I get picked on for people I care about, like the situation needs to go out as a spectacle to tame the crowd, as though it went away but didn't.

So, the English-Australian lady likes to think she's so cool by acting extra careful to be mean to me if she interprets anything as odd to her, like the image of the people monitoring me in private as a fat Italian-American lady.

So, the Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, we don't know if she likes other people and however she feels stimulated, the one question maybe to test if I have it better than her since I have her.

People are guilty of acting like it's their business this and that it doesn't matter for me but forget it does for her.

It sucks living in Black East Cleveland in a group home.  Would you like it?  There's someone in the home bothering me.  I'm trying to move to a different group home and even apartment.  If I move to an apartment, I have to work at least part time.  This is terrible.  I had to move here because both my parents got sick and died over 4 years.  Things aren't unfolding well for me.  It is nice to get out on my own up here.  It seems my dad ruined my life for me and made people not like me, somehow, and got "sexually" tickled about that he might have been controlling me, or my life.  I wanted to work, but I feel sorta traumatized, now, too.  Everyone is always onto me in ruining my life.  It hurts so much, or "I want to feel something."  The people monitoring me in private seemed to say one of my aunts acts like I can't feel even holy love and that she sucks my soul from other things in my life I do with others.  Even, if I'm praying feeling like I'm dying.  Meanwhile, other people, some break into things more successful for them in quality in certain ways, while I get tormented.  It's like people don't really like me, though I like networking via the internet. and, yes, it's interesting in other ways like through the air, though I think other people linger on it and need to move on with their lives, be that this kind of fame or whatnot.

I thought I'd have a room to myself, but someone else moved in.  I can't practice as much.  I need to get out.  I wanted to, but my aunts wanted me to stay or move to another group home or one said just to keep my SSI though.

So, yea, the people monitoring me in private keep getting stricter and stuff and it's not getting to be normal, the reason I wanted to leave Orlando.  Things aren't all more exciting in certain ways, like a nostalgia to see the past and how I dealt with and tolerated the hardships that came my way.  I'm supposed to not worry about things if I have a "relationship" I'm supposedly supposed to have with a Late Baby Boomer European lady.  Some things are getting worse, but I'm trying to thrive.  People can be so slow and in the way.  I just need to get out.  I have to hope I can keep a part time job, and I guess I will see.  I can keep it in the group home, it might be easier with my own apartment to myself to relax in.  I just have to run my life myself.  It's too bad I can only get a total of about $21,000/month, this way on this government money.  I might get up to around $3,000/month from my dad being a deceased veteran.  It could be a few more months, hopefully not as long as a year from now.

I noticed I used to have heard things and it was fun, and it almost made me think of God and Heaven.  I became underground famous, and a Late Baby Boomer European lady I am supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with became underground famous over me and inappropriately stimulated by the whole world all the time forever and after death.  People acted trashy like they found out about the voices and have been supporting her cause, so-to-speak.  I have to live like death all the time.

A maybe English-Australian lady from the Sydney area, a choir director at an all boy's school, supposedly is the person representing the style of the people monitoring me in private talking to me.  When I started watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," they did that with someone else I found I liked since and seemed to leap forward and say no to me not wanting it.  It happened all these years since 2012.  The maybe English-Australian lady came in a year ago.  She wants to act like she replaces the Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.

So, at first, they advertised something you can't have as though it were attainable.

Then, they said they did it on purpose to say no.