It's sick the way people monitoring me in private have picked up on some feeling and went crazy analyzing it forwards and backwards, sickening at the fact they are into some things.

Also, since I encountered it or something, they wanted to do it to me but not them.

I'm hearing desperate fantasies from cars outside that rightly so the Late Baby Boomer European lady thinks I'm shit and said I deserve to die.  They're pretending I got into something a certain way, so these messages mean nothing in many ways potentially, but I as a person don't myself kid around despite their fantasies.

I can see the crowd turned on to "sex" and bodily/emotional and such stimulation.  They want to say I did it.  "By the way," they were doing bad when getting in my personal life, and somehow that affected how other people treated me.