Is there something wrong with Australia?  A Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with is held responsible for a maybe English-Australian lady by Sydney teaching choir at a boy's school, I used to be able to follow and post to online ... for this English-Australian lady replacing the other lady and more.  The fire alarm somewhere in the group home keeps going off, and the people monitoring me in private just sit there and don't say anything, like I don't matter, when for some reason early on often a message registers in my head from the English-Australian lady.

I get messages like after all this I never even meet the other lady.  If it were a joke, they bother me with more memories or threats. Of course, they blame the other lady.  So, it's been this way since around the summer Olympics.  I forget what else I was going to say.

It seems like the other lady thinks I can sorta live around it, but the people monitoring me in private haven't said anything.

I don't know what the other lady said or what the people monitoring her in private asked her or linked to her.  Anyway, it's leaving me hanging with this one person just trying to ruin it with the other lady, like I'm a bad person, and not letting me live my life, like other people haven't.  It's shit in the real world.

Black people in East Cleveland act agitated about the cold to me, and I'm from Down South and it's my first time Up North and they're just feeling sorry for themselves, I wanna get out anyway.

It's about people who seem less complex about problems and receive love well.  People thought maybe I wasn't human and didn't realize things later, but I realize them.

I guess all this is just "okay."

I expect hotel treatment.

Blacks here are so annoying and have a comeback.

I don't like how people in Ohio handle group homes.  They're not okay.  I'm leaving this state.

She said she would go with it, and people are just stupid.

Well, like, just be stupid and blame the lady.

I see that I'm always the problem to work around.  Like my coming here was a bad thing.

Isn't it retarded they think every thought is "final answer" like my privilege but bargain?

These Black people are not the only people in the world, and in their hate they can be very stupid to me.

They keep acting like the people monitoring me in private are touching me because I showed physical signs of frustration alone in the group home.

It seems that they're "coming out."

It's all about the Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with...

Late Baby Boomers flail about here and do whatever they want to me.  I get injured by accidentally hurting myself in some general form, like my typing seems slow and is painful somewhat- painful when I post about these things.

Basically, it's not about me because they think I'm younger and I'm "the receiver."  If I am right, I am wrong.  I was just teased brutally, in some retarded fashion.

Also, overall, the end game is all bad things are this lady to me because no one wants to fess up to it.

She gets comfort by others telling her to be mean to me or to "forget about" me.

I was brutally awoken in my sleep.  My music keeps breaking up, and it's like I'm not getting any sleep.

I get teased for being overly positive like I'm in a category, like I see nothing specific in this way.

They're trashing me overall in this "game" monitoring me in private.  My condition is trash.  People don't feel safe to be nice to me, but I'm still here and things seem to flow with these people where I am.

My old choir director in the New Orleans area speaks through and now participates monitoring me in private saying I wasn't as cool as a baby and so am nothing, like it's some cute thing to say.

I can't believe the people monitoring me in private were so incompetent to work to end up squeezing this out of her.

People keep making a topic suggested by a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with seem like a big deal.

I'm upset if the lady is lesser to me than suggested or whatever.

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I edited that post again.

People are speaking for a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.  They are saying her fame is the reality and it's in great excess.. and what was supposed to be okay is not, though, so what was the point?  Did she enjoy it so far?

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I edited my last post.

Awake

Am I supposed to feel uncomfortable some people get a little mad at me but they think they aren't because they are willing to talk to me?

EDIT: I'd like to find some "nicer" and better way to put it.

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It seems a talk show host thinks I'm a volatile figure, and I notice only I get picked on for people I care about, like the situation needs to go out as a spectacle to tame the crowd, as though it went away but didn't.

So, the English-Australian lady likes to think she's so cool by acting extra careful to be mean to me if she interprets anything as odd to her, like the image of the people monitoring me in private as a fat Italian-American lady.

So, the Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, we don't know if she likes other people and however she feels stimulated, the one question maybe to test if I have it better than her since I have her.

People are guilty of acting like it's their business this and that it doesn't matter for me but forget it does for her.

It sucks living in Black East Cleveland in a group home.  Would you like it?  There's someone in the home bothering me.  I'm trying to move to a different group home and even apartment.  If I move to an apartment, I have to work at least part time.  This is terrible.  I had to move here because both my parents got sick and died over 4 years.  Things aren't unfolding well for me.  It is nice to get out on my own up here.  It seems my dad ruined my life for me and made people not like me, somehow, and got "sexually" tickled about that he might have been controlling me, or my life.  I wanted to work, but I feel sorta traumatized, now, too.  Everyone is always onto me in ruining my life.  It hurts so much, or "I want to feel something."  The people monitoring me in private seemed to say one of my aunts acts like I can't feel even holy love and that she sucks my soul from other things in my life I do with others.  Even, if I'm praying feeling like I'm dying.  Meanwhile, other people, some break into things more successful for them in quality in certain ways, while I get tormented.  It's like people don't really like me, though I like networking via the internet. and, yes, it's interesting in other ways like through the air, though I think other people linger on it and need to move on with their lives, be that this kind of fame or whatnot.

I thought I'd have a room to myself, but someone else moved in.  I can't practice as much.  I need to get out.  I wanted to, but my aunts wanted me to stay or move to another group home or one said just to keep my SSI though.

So, yea, the people monitoring me in private keep getting stricter and stuff and it's not getting to be normal, the reason I wanted to leave Orlando.  Things aren't all more exciting in certain ways, like a nostalgia to see the past and how I dealt with and tolerated the hardships that came my way.  I'm supposed to not worry about things if I have a "relationship" I'm supposedly supposed to have with a Late Baby Boomer European lady.  Some things are getting worse, but I'm trying to thrive.  People can be so slow and in the way.  I just need to get out.  I have to hope I can keep a part time job, and I guess I will see.  I can keep it in the group home, it might be easier with my own apartment to myself to relax in.  I just have to run my life myself.  It's too bad I can only get a total of about $21,000/month, this way on this government money.  I might get up to around $3,000/month from my dad being a deceased veteran.  It could be a few more months, hopefully not as long as a year from now.

I noticed I used to have heard things and it was fun, and it almost made me think of God and Heaven.  I became underground famous, and a Late Baby Boomer European lady I am supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with became underground famous over me and inappropriately stimulated by the whole world all the time forever and after death.  People acted trashy like they found out about the voices and have been supporting her cause, so-to-speak.  I have to live like death all the time.

A maybe English-Australian lady from the Sydney area, a choir director at an all boy's school, supposedly is the person representing the style of the people monitoring me in private talking to me.  When I started watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," they did that with someone else I found I liked since and seemed to leap forward and say no to me not wanting it.  It happened all these years since 2012.  The maybe English-Australian lady came in a year ago.  She wants to act like she replaces the Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.

So, at first, they advertised something you can't have as though it were attainable.

Then, they said they did it on purpose to say no.

When left to the truth, I remember I'm good.

At the beginning, I was not told I'd be peeped on to lose it all.  I had to move since then, too, so people around me have different feelings.  Some people are just uncontrollably jealous of anything.

Someone feels it's their job to stimulate someone, but it ends up with him seeming superior to others.

I noticed something funny where people don't even think any of it happened for me originally anyway.

I got underground famous somehow, and a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, I keep feeling, possibly may have taken it on purpose for some reason, so now she's popular and I can be questionable about my right to have a "relationship" with her or function where I am or go.  Now, since people wanted to make it seem like she was always with me, someone else is pestering me, making use of this system.  It's irritating to say I lost anything in my "relationship" with the lady like I "did" anything... like it was my fault.

People just want to help make this lady inappropriate in an overly stimulating way.  They think the likes of her is to be hurt more than most people?  I think the people monitoring me in private are sorta showcasing her on display because most people are questionable to me and they want to know why her too.  So, she's good for getting attention and and said to be bad to me in these messages others give me claiming it's her.

So, the people monitoring me in private are acting like someone the Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with knows is acting mean to me and showing off about it, like she thinks she knows me and that I'm shit.

People are working on holding doing things for the big finale, but they are bad things "happily ever after.."

Are people just tryin' to get me to talk to make fun of me?

Who cares about some/many people, anyway.  I have reasonable goals, and I'm not in trouble.

Some things are the untouchable topic.

I feel trapped.

If it doesn't work out for one person, then it does for another but not oneself.

They're onto this!

Pretty much, one wants to feel a lot in bad ways, while cutting off others from having a successful experience, like one is better.  It may only be done to make havoc if something isn't just for them waiting but they don't want it really.

One assumes one is important plus feels a certain way they don't have to, to annoy others but more ultimately.

It's sick the way people monitoring me in private have picked up on some feeling and went crazy analyzing it forwards and backwards, sickening at the fact they are into some things.

Also, since I encountered it or something, they wanted to do it to me but not them.

I'm hearing desperate fantasies from cars outside that rightly so the Late Baby Boomer European lady thinks I'm shit and said I deserve to die.  They're pretending I got into something a certain way, so these messages mean nothing in many ways potentially, but I as a person don't myself kid around despite their fantasies.

I can see the crowd turned on to "sex" and bodily/emotional and such stimulation.  They want to say I did it.  "By the way," they were doing bad when getting in my personal life, and somehow that affected how other people treated me.

I may be cranky because of people bothering me.  I'm also having my period in at least a week, if not now.

I just got really pissed off that it's like this Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with got underground famous over me.  "Instead," it's like some joke and punishment that I feel guilty about it and feel mad other people are getting close to me who are mean to or not as social with me, like none of this really matters to anyone, anyway..  They don't need to tricked to get overly involved in fighting crap.

Late Baby Boomers clown around without reaching goals, yet they don't let others take a break and have fun.

What if my life took a turn for the worse somehow, and everyone was being monitored in private, like my life being framed and a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with be preoccupied or bothered.

It's just good to consider these things calmly, post them on a blog, etc.  It's like my life might not be destroyed but somehow not work out.

Fact.  They're jumping to conclusions and behaving "stupidly."

Everyone keeps acting like I figure out things tactually and Autistically, like over the top like building blocks and they're just coming on.

They won't stop dipping in that if I feel something it's true.

They want to come in and cancel my potential anywhere.

It seems like a general phenomena and drawing in that I be put below others.

I'm not here to settle for this.

I don't need to be categorized as a family.

I don't have to be like other people or hold off for them.

They're going crazy blaming my private wonderings like I have a fetish.

It's like everyone has a VIP to "get on my nerves" and do "stupid" things.

I don't want to blend in with and get close to these people.  They are reaping from my accomplishments in life.

It's like they think I'm one with as a mongrel morally.

I already proved them wrong, but they keep charging for more.  I don't think I even had to post much about it. 

How pathetic, like that's their own creed.  They might know I find them some of them corny sometimes.  I already agree that a Late Baby Boomer European lady is great.  It doesn't mean I "stoop to their level" like I'm family.

So, they think they're "all that" like they went in and want me to be categorized with them now.  It might be an old plan they're just upset I posted about.  It's for "off the wall" reasons, too.

Why do some people just get testy how long they come in to "break up the party?"  We're still there..

People are coming up with crafty, autistic arguments saying things match and not doing the work if they want the true reward and preventing others from reaching God inside.

You know when life is already bad and maybe it seems like someone might be chiming in to make it worse ... and act confident they know you're bad?  Life was never fair to me, and I don't know for sure what I did that bothered people.